A Simple Girl in a Complex World

Well I’m very very scared right now…..

I went to my Radiography Pre-Admissions Conference yesterday and I was quite confident when I walked in and sat down! I sat and talked with some of my fellow students around me and waited for the Director to start.

I sat and listened intently as she went through the information and asked a couple of questions. But then someone asked what the lowest GPA they accepted in the program last year was and the woman replied “3.0″ then I thought OH GREAT! I definately do not have a 3.0 GPA I have a 2.745 right now, and with the grades I have calculated at this time by the end of this semester I should have a 2.8 which is still 2 points away from a 3.0 so I’ve come to the conclusion that basically I am not going to get accepted into the program this year! I might get put on the alternate list but I would be so far down there that I wouldnt get in because not that many people will decline their spots!

Now I know that I shouldnt automatically assume that I will just NOT get it, if I go about with that attitude I will subconciously give up! But as of right now I’m trying to decide what my “backup plan” will be.

As I drove home yesterday I was thinking OMG what do I do? What will I do!? Well I have 4 choices.

1. I can sit around and wait until the next go around so I can apply for the next term which would be Fall of 2009 (meaning not taking any classes after this coming semester)
2. Try and get accepted into the program at St.Joe which is basically like a we’ll teach you on site but you have to pay us $5000 plus uniforms and other things which comes out to be about $7000.
3. I can try and get into the program at Morehead which is 2.5 hours away from home and it would cost me alot to drive back and fourth everyday! So basically this is not an option at all unless I want to move which I do not!
4. I can switch to an entirely new major…….which I’m also kind of against!

See this is just so disappointing I am really working hard to do well in all of my classes but it’s seeming that my best is just not good enough! I feel like a failure and all I want to do is cry! I just don’t know what to do anymore…..there is nothing else that I am interested in I’ve always known that I wanted to work in a health realated field.

I just dont know anymore I guess I’ll just see where this all goes and take it from there!

*****I take it back I read in our hand book for BCTC that my MA 108 grade would not be included in my GPA calculation so it brought my GPA up to a 2.855 and if I get 3 Bs and 1 A like I’m expecting to my GPA will go up to a 2.945! So maybe I have a chance after all! *****

With this camera! I cannot wait to get my pretty little hands on it! I’ve decided I hate my present digital camera and want a nicer one. I did a lot of research and this one is what I’m willing to pay for and it has a bunch of nice features on it! It is going to be my birthday/christmas present to myself!

I’m not going to purchase it until after the first of the year to watch the price and see if it will go down since they typically debute the newer models at the first of the year so everyone will want the new ones! So hopefully this model will go down after they put out a few more higher models out there which I believe there is already 4 more higher than this!

I mean I can’t honestly tell you how excited I am about this camera! I really would like a DSLR but they are way too expensive and maybe a bit out of my ability to use. They have some tricky features on them so it would take me awhile to learn how to use it! I would love to do amateture photography on the side for fun. But I think I”ll just keep it as a hobby for now!

This camera is just wow though! It has great zoom, and also so many settings it’s unbelieveable! I think one of the ones I”m most excited about is the light fetures you can turn lights into shapes such as hearts, music notes, stars, etc. I just want wait to start trying it out!

I’ll write a review once I get it and let you guys know how I like it!

I’ve been a bad blogger lately. I havent posted in over a week! I’ve been really busy though! I had an Anatomy test on Tuesday and a Developmental Psychology test on Wednesday! I got my grades back on the two tests that I had to take back in the last week of October and well I said I THOUGHT I did well on my math test and well it turns out I did NOT do well on that test at all! Plus I knew I did horrible on the anatomy lab test! I was just having a horrible day on Tuesday, but I already got the grades back for the tests I took this week and I got an 86 on my Anatomy test (yay very HAPPY with that!) and I got a 90 on my Developmental pyschology test (VERRRY happy with that!) So I had an overall kind of up and down week! But I’ve gotten to spend LOTS of time with J. Which always makes me happy! We celebrated our one year anniversary yesterday since he wasnt here when it really took place, it was a good day!

We slept in late and then he made me breakfast (eggs, toast, coffee, bacon and sausage YUM) and then we just lazed around the house while I did laundry (which definately needed to be done his uniforms were NASTY!) and then he decided he wanted to take me shopping to get presents (I love presents!) and he told me to pick out what I wanted and I ended up getting a journey necklace, a pretty ring (which I have to have sized down ALOT) and a new Nicholas Sparks book called “Dear John” which I have already started reading! He offered to take me out to dinner where ever I wanted to go but I chose to have a bacon pizza from Little Ceasers (I’m addicted to them) and then we went and rented 28 Weeks Later. I do not know why I picked out this movie! I was scared to death of 28 Days later so I dont know why I thought this one would be any different! Every time I heard a noise in the house last night I freaked out! LOL I dont normally get freaked out about scary movies but I think 28 days & weeks later is my worst nightmare honestly! I mean think about it, someone gets the rage and then just goes crazy on people and then they get it and eventually everyone gets it and then they starve to death I’m sorry but that is just scary to me! I have a good protective boyfriend though so if anyone with the rage came in the house he’d take care of them! hehehehe!

Today has been like any normal saturday really, just got up and went to work and here I am now at work blogging! I really had intended on doing a couple of sections of math homework but I played around on here so long that it’s almost time for me to go home so I’ve just decided to do it all on Monday! Procrastination bites me in the @ss again! I’m excited/nervous about tonight though because we get to go to J’s younger brothers birthday party (his birthday is on the same day as mine) and J told his mom and now it is mine & his younger brothers’ party, I feel half way special but also scared because I dont like being the center of attention and especially sung happy birthday too (I know I’m a weirdo!) but for me past I believe 6 birthday parties I’ve not let them sing to me! I just told them to eat the cake LOL!

Well I’m done for now I might write again if I have some time! Maybe Monday? Sunday if I get some alone time? We’ll see! But I’ll definately write on Wednesday (My 21st birthday)